was a year ago today.
I am sitting here, trying to collect my thoughts and write something about that day and how things have changed and I can't seem to stop weeping. I am not sad. I am not overwhelmed. I feel calm. It's a quiet, weepy, and cathartic feeling of peace. I think I am crying because I just went through a slideshow of memories and emotions. I remember getting the call, seeing your face, learning your name and your story. I was overwhelmed by excitement and joy. My adrenaline was off the charts. Family and friends had to remind me to breathe. I remember feeling very scared, anxious and sick before traveling to meet you. I remember meeting you for the first time and then having to leave you behind. I remember the joy and laughter we shared with you and with our new friends in Addis. I remember taking that physically and mentally challenging trip to your birth village. I remember stepping off of the plane and seeing Mom, Dad, Zack and Molly. You were so tired and you just hung back your head, trying to take it all in. You were in a strange place, with strangers. I hoped that you would fall in love with us as much as we had already fallen in love with you.
I remember all of the uncertainty that permeated EVERY SINGLE STEP of our journey to become a family of three. I am crying with others who are experiencing the same uncertainty and anxiety. I can still feel it when I stop, turn off the noise and reflect. It's in my bones.
It's truly amazing how time passes and we evolve. You have grown and progressed so much in such a short amount of time. You challenge the heck out of me and make me want to be a better person. Thank you, my little scooch mcgooch. Love - Mom
I can't believe it's been a year! I remember when you got the call and when you shared the photos on the 4th of July. Kenenisa has changed SO MUCH in the past year he hardly even looks like the same person. He's so lucky to have you guys and you him.
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I can't stop crying either. What a wonderful gift from God, dream come true, and answer to ALL our prayers. I love the way you express your thoughts and feelings, Leanne. And most of all I love you, Kenenisa Desmond Gent. xo
ReplyDeleteI right there with you sister! I love these beautiful faces. I can't believe how my world has changed - it's hard to believe it's the same world on many days :> We can't wait to see you in August!
ReplyDeleteI love this post.
ReplyDeleteAs we come up on our "one year ago..." day, I can't help but have the lovely weepies myself. And certain days, I still cannot get over the perfectly chaotic journey that lead us to our babes.
We can't wait to see you all in August.
Beautiful post, so heartfelt. I can't believe it's been a year either. And I can finally see your photos on here!!! They hadn't been loading for me, and I was missing watching this fella grow up from far away. Can't wait to see you all in person soon!
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